Ever since my last post and the decision to stop bashing my body and start living in full appreciation of what I am today, I’ve felt a lot more energetic and happy, too. It feels like a weight has been taken off of my shoulders. My old ways of thinking do try to lurk back in but I’m sure that with mindfulness and practice they’ll fade away.
I feel like this is a topic that I should write more about, how to love your body as it is, all in taking a good care of it. Running, toning up, doing abs and in general moving your body and eating mindfully, and as clean as it feels good, are all good things. But even after that you may not be as skinny as you’d like. Then that’s when you have to do work on yourself in order to accept that your unique weight set point is there where it naturally, without constant battle, falls.
For years I tried to fool myself into thinking that I was super skinny by nature. I still think that I am naturally slim or even thin but not underweight and skeletal. Since my undereating years I’ve had to relearn what my body really looks like, how much food a normal person eats and so on. I am now able, and more and more every passing year, to enjoy food without guilt. I am able to find a BMI of 19 ok and not needing to loose weight. These things take time. I’m sure that I’m not alone with these issues so that’s why I feel like I should write out openly about my feelings even if it can put me in a vulnerable position.
Today my life is a lot happier and a lot fuller than during those years when I was focused on staying as skinny as humanly possible. I’m full of energy and positivity – and I’m sure that these feelings will even grow as I learn to reprogram my thoughts.
Spring and even summer are here, yay! Canada is so different in the warm seasons. Everyone’s out and about and just making the most of the sunny skies. I’m hosting a dinner party tomorrow. I’m so hyped. I love gathering dear friends together and just chilling and having fun. I plan to teach my friends some facial yoga moves that I’ve been doing.
My visit at the Boston Museum of Fine Arts was well worth the 25-dollar entry fee. My friend Chantal and I took a one-hour guided tour under theme of art from America. Our guide, a lovely gentleman, took our small group of four kiddos – we could have been our guide’s grandkids I think – thru different decades of art and artifacts, pulling out pieces that I wouldn’t have accorded so much time to. The “aw, am I glad I came ” moment was in font of Frieda Kahlo’s two servants. Everything in that lapse of time just seemed perfect – relaxing and cultivating all at once.
Hey peeps, Whazzup? I wish we had more interaction here on the blog. But maybe those days are bygone… Anyways, I’m enjoying the summer. Quebec is such a beautiful place to live in at this season. I’m taking deep breaths and sweetly gazing into the future, and the present, too.
Work is a lot slower at this time. Peeps don’t really want to take English lessons when the temps rise, and the city is full of outdoor activities. So I’m giving all my energy to the ones that still do come. I’m also developing new ideas for fall. Hopefully then my enterprise will soar again.
Today I’m hyped up since my sister is on her way to visit us. It’s been a long haul not connecting face to face. Tomorrow we’re off to Portland, Maine, so blogging from there will definitely follow.
What would you ask me if you saw me? Let’s go…
Here are shots from the North Shore of Oahu, the #1 surf place in the world. We visited the town of Haleiwa with its old plantation town charm. Surf stores and cute little gift shops line up the main street. The vibe is very laid back and surfer-cool. There was this little café called Waialua Bakery that our guide book recommended and it was the best place I’ve eaten at in Hawaii. We shared a Hungry Hawaiian sandwich (turkey, bacon, sprouts and hummus) and a raspberry smoothie. We also bought cookies for snack. The sandwich was heavenly – everything is homegrown and homemade right before your eyes. The smoothie tasted very fresh. I usually don’t like to drink my food but when traveling and in hot climates, I’ll go for it. After this lunch I felt satisfied yet nicely light. My chocolate chip cookie was moist and yummy.
We enjoyed the surfing show and saw the sunset at Sunset Beach. So far Hawaii has taught me some cool attitude. People eat healthy and enjoy the ocean. I’ve let my hair get sandy and skin breathe. I’ve just cherished gazing over to the endless water.
We drove up to Atlantic City to check out the East Coast gambling scene. Well, no moneying for this gal, but some outlet shopping yep. I found a pair of black and white pumps at Payless, a tank top at G for Guess and ballet flats. It’s not the first time that H&M as well as Forever 21 outlet shops leave me longing for more. Seems like their outlet stores are quite the end-of-it-all frock cemeteries.
After shoppin’ till droppin’, we headed out to the boardwalk via Starbucks. We sipped our coffees and munched on our cookies on a bench as people strolled by. Once nourished, we ventured on to check out each end of the boardwalk, stepping into some casinos every once in a while. The most impressive one was the Taj Mahal. A light show projected on a palace wall as well as the 10:15pm fireworks delighted us. After that it was time to grab a bite of delish pizza, mine veggie and his chicken ranch. Atlantic City most likely pales out in comparison to Las Vegas but you can have your sweet moment there. I know I did.
La Senza bra