Ever since my last post and the decision to stop bashing my body and start living in full appreciation of what I am today, I’ve felt a lot more energetic and happy, too. It feels like a weight has been taken off of my shoulders. My old ways of thinking do try to lurk back in but I’m sure that with mindfulness and practice they’ll fade away.
I feel like this is a topic that I should write more about, how to love your body as it is, all in taking a good care of it. Running, toning up, doing abs and in general moving your body and eating mindfully, and as clean as it feels good, are all good things. But even after that you may not be as skinny as you’d like. Then that’s when you have to do work on yourself in order to accept that your unique weight set point is there where it naturally, without constant battle, falls.
For years I tried to fool myself into thinking that I was super skinny by nature. I still think that I am naturally slim or even thin but not underweight and skeletal. Since my undereating years I’ve had to relearn what my body really looks like, how much food a normal person eats and so on. I am now able, and more and more every passing year, to enjoy food without guilt. I am able to find a BMI of 19 ok and not needing to loose weight. These things take time. I’m sure that I’m not alone with these issues so that’s why I feel like I should write out openly about my feelings even if it can put me in a vulnerable position.
Today my life is a lot happier and a lot fuller than during those years when I was focused on staying as skinny as humanly possible. I’m full of energy and positivity – and I’m sure that these feelings will even grow as I learn to reprogram my thoughts.
In Chicago we rented Divvy bikes and visited the Lake Michigan side. I adored getting another look on the city. It felt more of a local. I had made us sandwiches. We stopped whenever something interesting came up. Playing it all by ear. A pop into the botanical gardens crowned the fun filled day.
The biking day called for a relaxed chic outfit. So I went plaid. Layering seemed the perfect match with the windy city. Time with the Sweets. A new to me big city to roam about. A coffee stop. Relaxing here and there. That was what life needed. Batteries were loaded and sweet little memories made.
It’s full on winter here in Quebec City now. I put a lot of importance on staying glamour in my daily life. So when we took a hike in the snowy forest to go sample some maple sugar taffy I made sure to wear something that made me feel special – like these Native American inspired hair feathers.
We rummaged thru the snow-covered woods. My client had told me how to get to the little family operated sugar shack in the middle of the forest. She instructed me “once you start seeing faces carved into the threes aligning the path, you know you’re not far”. The truth be told, it took us longer than we’d thought to see those carvings so I did start to wonder in the back of my mind whether I was leading the hubs and my friend into a flat-out disappointment.
Once at the shack, the friendly owner poured some hot maple syrup onto the clean, white snow. Once the yummy stuff freezes, with the help of an ice cream stick, you roll it out and you enjoy. Very rewarding after hiking in the freezing cold air!
I’d love to know – how do you make January special?
Ivana Trump coat
Charlotte Russe jeans
Arden hair feathers