Ever since my last post and the decision to stop bashing my body and start living in full appreciation of what I am today, I’ve felt a lot more energetic and happy, too. It feels like a weight has been taken off of my shoulders. My old ways of thinking do try to lurk back in but I’m sure that with mindfulness and practice they’ll fade away.
I feel like this is a topic that I should write more about, how to love your body as it is, all in taking a good care of it. Running, toning up, doing abs and in general moving your body and eating mindfully, and as clean as it feels good, are all good things. But even after that you may not be as skinny as you’d like. Then that’s when you have to do work on yourself in order to accept that your unique weight set point is there where it naturally, without constant battle, falls.
For years I tried to fool myself into thinking that I was super skinny by nature. I still think that I am naturally slim or even thin but not underweight and skeletal. Since my undereating years I’ve had to relearn what my body really looks like, how much food a normal person eats and so on. I am now able, and more and more every passing year, to enjoy food without guilt. I am able to find a BMI of 19 ok and not needing to loose weight. These things take time. I’m sure that I’m not alone with these issues so that’s why I feel like I should write out openly about my feelings even if it can put me in a vulnerable position.
Today my life is a lot happier and a lot fuller than during those years when I was focused on staying as skinny as humanly possible. I’m full of energy and positivity – and I’m sure that these feelings will even grow as I learn to reprogram my thoughts.
I still have some yummy pics to show you from Boston. I loved dressing in all black. I don’t often do that anymore – I used to a lot – so when I do, it makes me feel different, it makes a statement.
I greatly enjoyed following the Black Heritage Trail. I criss-crosses the picturesque area of Beacon Hill. Boston is an awesome city for someone like me who loves putting on those miles. We walked, and walked some more, for a total of close to six hours that day. It feels great to be out and about, visit and use your precious body at the same time. After that you can go a crazy with them Doritos, if you’d like. That’s my indulgence when I travel.
Quebec City hosted the cross-country skiing world cup finale last week so subsequently the Saint Patrick’s Parade was postponed until this weekend. The hubs and I enjoyed watching the marching bands parade from our fave cities like New York, Boston or Chicago. There was a lot of Celtic music in the air. Spring’s on its way.
In Canada spring looks different from other places. Here it means the remains of snow. We keep looking at the lingering snowbanks and occasionally wonder when they’ll give space to new buds. In this outfit I wanted to have fun with transitional clothes. Cold shoulders and ripped jeans. Showing more skin again after all the covered up winter months.
We went thru a couple of weeks of pure gray and rainy mush. You know, the typical November tune. Now the sun’s back. The weekend is here and I’m boosted.
I stumbled upon this article and it got me inspired. The text talks about positive thinking and attitude. The key idea is that you can consciously replace your negative thoughts by positive ones. Practice makes perfect, too. I have been applying this idea and it has worked wonders. I like simple things. Life isn’t complicated unless we make it so.
When events happen in your life you can choose how to react to them. A rainy day can be a doom’s day or an opportunity to light up a yummy smelling candle and take a bubble bath. A challenging situation can be an opportunity to surpass yourself. The way you present these ideas to yourself is the key. The more you do the positive walk (and talk), the more automatic it will become. Reading more about this type of thinking, studying all you can to keep you motivated, is what you can and should do. I know my project for a constant happy life is rolling on. I’m excited to see the changes! Happiness overflow?
Fall is finally slowly starting to kick in here in Quebec City. It’s been such a great summer with lots of warm morning jogs in Central Park and coffees on the Grand Allee terrace. I’m suffering from a sinusitis. It’s forced me to slow down and take time to rest. I try to see lesson in everything so now I’m tending a listening ear to the message this quieter time can deliver me. It’s definitely about trust. Believing that my company will continue its happy life even though I’ve had to cancel a few days.
When feeling physically low I go to things that soothe me. I start wanting to take baths. I walk in the city and pay more attention on details. I write to friends that I haven’t connected with in a while. I study some Bible, pray and mediate on the verses I read. It seems that just as my body is weak, my heart is ever more open during these days. All distractions are gone. Just the essential – the lesson in learning to accept life as it comes.
I’ve let myself be carried away by life this summer. Now that August is winding to its end, I think I’ll be more present on my dear blog. Writing out here gives me a unique kind of pleasure. Since I’m doing this for fun, I impose myself no schedule whatsoever.
I have a new idea for the blog. Since I am very active in the English-speaking community of Quebec City, I want to write more about those events, along with my personal trend experiments. I’m a very sociable person so connecting online and outside is pivotal for my wellbeing. That’s why I’ve created many events around town.
The newest of them: a free fitness class that takes place every Saturday 10-11a.m. at my church Chalmers-Wesley United Church of Canada. We had our first class last Saturday and six people came. It felt nice to be teaching aerobics again after a decade long break. The next class is on September 10. On Labor Day weekend I’m heading to Burlington, Vermont.