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Trendy Thin Knit – Food Talk

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Trying to find a balance in my body. Food things are difficult to figure out. Most of you know that I went down anorexia lane a few years ago. It crept on me subtly. I felt insignificant. Not having accomplished much career wise. There was this frustration and void in my life – even if I lived in Paris, the place I had wanted and chosen.

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It all started with a diet. I had had food problems – binge eating – in my past though. That started with a ballet teacher’s comment how I needed to be thinner. So in 2005 I got the taste of shedding kilos. Five years later I was in a very skeletal state. I knew it, yet didn’t really. I couldn’t bring myself into doing much about it. Just worry that I’d die. I was scared and trapped in my own game.

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I moved to Canada and decided to get better. For a year now, I have been eating without counting my intake. Trying to follow my hunger. It’s been more difficult than I had thought. I’ve been more anxious – mostly about life in general – than I would have liked. Why am I writing this? Because this is my blog and I feel the need to talk about this today.

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I have gained weight more than I would have wanted. I haven’t eaten uncontrollably. Just done my best at eating according to my hunger cues. I basically don’t eat any added sugars anymore. My mornings are made of two open faced sandwiches with veggies – one with a slice of ham, the other with a slice of cheese – and oatmeal. Lunches are salads with turkey and cheese, dessert, if needed, will be a cup of muesli. Dinners are again based on a salad, maybe salmon or chicken. If I need a snack I try to go for an apple, a banana or a granola bar.

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I ended up going to see a nutritionist. I had never done that before. So far she just told me to pay attention on my iron intake. Trying to eat more eggs and poultry, maybe a bit less cheese. The nutritionist also asked me what I weighed when I had a normal eating period in my life. The brief years in between my binging and restriction leading to anorexia, I weighed about what I do now. I realized that as I was talking to her.

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The nutritionist explained to me that we all have a programmed weight. That is something that our body decides on its own. We can spend our life fighting this number. If we do so, the body will activate its survival instinct and to be sure to prevail, will even add a few extra pounds to the programmed amount, just to be safe. So, the message to me was that I’m eating the way I should, no visible excess, and the fact that my body has still gained weight is due to my need of being at a higher number, yet. So, I was hoping to shed the four last pounds that I find ugly and too much, and now I am to be an adult about this all and just accept my body the way it needs to be.

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I would like to see my body energetic and thin. I don’t know if it is possible at a weight that my mind finds pretty. I don’t like my stomach which is not firm and lean. Some body unhappiness is due to happen to everyone. As I see my body get bigger, I’m less enthusiastic about taking pictures.

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This whole process is quite confusing. I am told that the body will not gain – on normal food intake – beyond its natural need. And that I am not to try to control this. Yet there’s this whole industry based on that.

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My body, my life (with energy and not anorexia lethargy) and my mind – we’re getting closer to a common understanding, yet there’s still a bit work to be done. Eating freely, recognizing real hunger from emotional stuff, loving my body the way it is, having energy to do what I need and want… These are a lot better than a few years ago. But they can be even more so.

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Yep, sometimes a lot of pondering goes on behind this smile. Does any of what I wrote speak to you? How could we all find peace and feel beautiful without attacking ourselves?

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Chanel-like Candy Coated

Chanel-like Candy Coated

Have you seen the Chanel Fall/Winter 2014-2015 ready-to-wear fashion show in Paris? A video here (scroll down to the first March 6 post) and an interesting trend report here and the best Paris show looks here.

In the above pic Valerie and I are organizing our Tea Party at church. Yummy cupcakes and smoked salmon sandwiches. And a grand occasion to dress up like Coco!

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This week in Paris the Great Karl had imagined a Chanel Shopping Center where the models strolled around freely as the audience admired the trendy shop hopper crowd. Lots of pinks and other peppy colors. The Master himself commented saying that “every woman wants to perk up the gray seasons with some colorful accents. This has to be done in style though.” My kind of style, for sure. Modern, shiny fabrics and street worthy shoes with luxuriously and timelessly chic silhouettes.

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Chanel-like Candy Coatedsource

Don’t you just love the mix of “chic and shock”? Right down my alley.

Chanel-like Candy Coated

Chanel-like Candy Coatedsource

Sparkles make everything better. Missy knows that.

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Here in the North American Paris, we’re still huffing away some snow dust. But my pink is pushing thru, though. Bubbly spirit. No matter what may come. Like clogged sinuses.

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Look what a genius combo – tweed with shiny pants! So edgy and contemporary. Brings it to this era.

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The Chanel collection must have been inspired by macaroons, amarettis, biscottis and such. Such candied colors leave no one cold. At the daycare, when distributing crafting paper, the pink gets the biggest “who wants it ‘me-eeee’s”.

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The above yummy accessory galore is found downtown Plattsburgh, upstate NY at the lovely Barbara’s boutique Caché Elegant.

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Chanel-like Candy Coated

Cupcakes make everything better, right? Baked by the stylish Valerie herself.

Chanel-like Candy Coated

Chanel-like Candy Coated

Chanel-like Candy Coated

I’m fighting a cold. Have been the whole week. Today was the first day I had to miss work. Can’t teach a class when I’m not-in-my-groove state. Hopefully my visit at the walk-in clinic later today will go faster than last time in October – then the ordeal took me 5hrs! I’ll be armed with the latest issue of US Marie Claire. The subscription was my Xmas present.

Gettin’ Crazy – Winter Ain’t Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

This year my winter has gone by a lot faster than the two previous ones here in Canada-land. I’ve done a hefty amount of winter sports – cross-country and downhill skiing, skating and snowshoeing. Could that be the reason?

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

The guy at the ice rink knows me by now. The other day they put on Metallica – as opposed to the Franco pop that they usually play – and I had a grand time swooshing away to “Nothing Else Matters”. I congratulated the ice-maker on his excellent musical choice.

The below sign just cracked me up. This is a store in Montreal.

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

I’m getting better at keeping my glamour even in freezing conditions. When I moved to Canada from Paris, that seemed to be the hardest thing. Gradually, you get more practice in decoding the weather, and also in choosing the good materials or the right combos.

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

It feels soothing to have found my place here a bit more. Canadians are good people. Very curious about other countries so that has always felt nice.

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

French Canada is an experience of its own. Well, on this continent I only know the US – so outside of my last year’s brief hop to Ottawa, I have had no experiences in the English-speaking Canada. I’d be interested to see what Toronto or Vancouver are about. And if they are similar to here.

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

My Thursday’s zumba continues to be a high point of the week. Although half of Friday goes into trying to get my groove back.

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Lately all the sportive activities have taken a toll on my coffee shop hanging time, but that can be remedied soon. We did go to a delicious Japanese restaurant last Saturday. I had salmon sushi, smoked salmon sushi and salmon maki. Someone at the table made a comment “you must like salmon”. You’re Scandinavian-born or you’re not.

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

Gettin' Crazy - Winter Ain't Over Just Yet

I’ve tried to be more mindful about what and how much I eat. Paying close attention to hunger cues. Somewhere along the line I developed a habit of eating if I got anxious about something. Then I’d regret it later when the feeling passed. Now I’ll aim at sitting down with the feeling, and then decide whether or not that is hunger or something totally different.

Anxiety continues to slather its unwanted colors on my otherwise happier days. How much of it should I just accept as “part of me”? And when can I decide that “that’s not me” and I have to fight it, or better yet chase it away?

Funky Snow Ballet

Funky Snow Ballet

Winter is pretty much at its peak now. In Canada the temps go way down and you have to adapt… not like my bygone Paris days when a sturdy trench pretty much did the February trick. The good attitude is the key, too. Getting funky with glamorous apparel. Just layering it up when outside.

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Crisp winter air has its positives. Oftentimes it renders things fairy-dust coated and tale-like. It can give you a boost of energy. This year I’ve gone all out – literally – with winter sports. I’ve been to the slopes twice, cross-country skiing twice as well, one snow-stormy snowshoeing hike and lots of ice-skating.

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Now I’m also doing “the squat challenge”. The idea is to start by 50 squats a day, upping it by 5 every passing day, until 80, and then increasing the reps by 10 until you get to 200 squats a day. I can already feel the super efficient toning effect. I get a kick out of sore muscles. Well, in moderation of course. They make me feel contented with my efforts to keep a chic and sexy silhouette.

Funky Snow Ballet

Funky Snow Ballet

Next weekend will be action filled. We’ll launch the festivities on Valentine’s Day with my Frenchie with cocktails, and more… just the two of us. For the French, the Lovers’ Day really is an important celebration. I love the pampering I get from my Sweets every year come mid-Février. Like last year.

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Saturday will be downhill skiing in Stoneham. Followed by a raclette – an Alpine dish based on melted cheese – dinner at my hubs’ boss’s. Shall be interesting to get to know her more. I’ve just met her briefly.

Funky Snow Ballet

Funky Snow Ballet

Sunday my friend Valerie and I are hosting a tea party at our church. Dress code is hoisted, four different teas, salty and sweet treats will be parading on pink-clothed tables. I’ll be busy pouring tea, but also babbling with funky folks. I adore the mix of people we have. Hopefully new faces, too. The very core idea of a church, non? Valerie loves any an occasion to dress up. I totally follow her delirium.

Funky Snow Ballet

Funky Snow Ballet

Funky Snow Ballet

These are my current winter pleasures… a colorful ballet of little things sparkly and precious.

Funky Snow Ballet

Funky Snow Ballet

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

My bestie Elodie and I took a day trip to Montreal. One Sunday as we met at Starbucks, I was a bit under the weather and Elodie came up with the idea. She picked me up in the morning and we rode and babbled the three hours that it takes from Quebec City to hit the Southern metropolis.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

We did see a fashion and craft exhibition but the best offerings were found at the conference center which happened to host a fashion and handmade products fair. The above are soaps – the smells were delish!

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

A kiss… A smack… the French way! It is Montreal after all. I get a kick out of geometrical things like these. My Scandinavian side maybe. Pure lines entice me.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Chocolate therapy… or is it the shoe one? Shopaholic or chocaholic – choose your camp, or not.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

A girls’ day is always such a booster. Seeing pretty things and having the time just to be together. We grabbed a leisurely lunch and took the time to linger on in the city.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Capturing the moment – you, (sex?) and the City. I love the concept. I’m a sucker for pics, anyway. You know that by now.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

We also bumped into a fashion show. A sure treat for this fashionista. The clothes weren’t that “state of the art” but I appreciate any fashion happening flowing my way.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Elodie all smiles as usual! I love her bubbly energy. Cozy and chic in her earmuffs. Remember – we got them together.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

My another guilty pleasure – fur. Faux by preference, may that be mentioned. Should I come across any softy hairy stuff, I just have to fidget.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Here. Now. Happy. That’s already a big victory.

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

Girrrlz Indulge in Montreal

A smack to you my dear reader! What are things that make your life sweeter?

Heck Yeah, I’ll Play!

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

This is me meeting the Florida Panthers ice-hockey player Sasha Barkov. How do I know this stylish – both inside and out – young man? My dear Daddy used to coach him.

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

My Dad has devoted his life to the puck game. He’s taught me what passion and determination look like. Sasha claims my dad to be one of the reasons he’s now playing in the big (NHL) games.

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

Meeting Sasha felt very enjoyable, first and foremost because he seems to be very down-to-earth and appreciative of the signs of interest that people now are showing him. All the stars appear to be lining up for his future glory – he got chosen to the Finnish Olympic Team – yet the young man remains kind and humble, having the patience to talk to people that maybe coming from afar to see him score.

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Sebastien, my hubs, rocking my dad’s team’s jersey. For him the game was a definite high point of his Sunshine State stay.

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

Cute girls come to games, huh. I know I used to hang out at the indoor ice-rink back in my skating days. I’d also perform during the intermission.

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

Another Finnish player swung by.

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

This is where the fun took place. Sebastien and I baptized it the BBQ Center. I have to admit having had one of the most delicious chocolate chip cookies there. Those puppies are my trusted treat.

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

Heck Yeah, I'll Play!

So, an evening nicely spent. After the game we drove to Ocean Drive, South Beach Miami, for some drinks. This is an example of how life’s pleasures are made of tiny little encounters and kind events, all coming together. And us grabbing the chance and being grateful.