Between the ten-day getaway with my dear hubby up North – yep, I hit Finland again – and some blog bugs, I unfortunately haven’t  been able to write sooner. You dear blogland buddies have, nevertheless, been on my mind. I also recently learned that many “real friend” folks pop in on my world. How nice, a little ‘yey’ here to you too! So now I’m back, as renewed and refreshed as ever. Ready to take on some new wondrous adventures, for the near future mostly here on the beautiful French soil.

My latest Finnish escape showed me many things. That the people I love from forever long are sure up there, and will always be, but that life does also go on and that my heart has and is shifting more and more towards the surroundings where I now unfold my daily life. The negative yearning is gone. I now love my country of childhood and youth with a more distanced, yet of course somewhat forever binding love.

If you only see your old friends once to three times a year, the key is in accepting the way we each are evolving in life. No one stays the same. Some have kids, others move to faraway places, some change companions, others just haircuts – all the same, things that define us are in constant move. If our lifestyles are no longer identical, there pretty much always is a question – whether pronounced aloud or not – to be answered: do we still have what it takes to see eye to eye? Can I put myself in the other person’s shoes and for a moment try to understand and appreciate the way they have chosen to develop their current life?

Today I feel very rooted in Paris. It is such a sweet sentiment. To be able to say to yourself “this is where I am supposed to be right now”. It sometimes takes time to arrive at this poised place, and the feeling might very well one day be gone again, but as of this wake of the day, I savor, all in carrying my loved ones preciously in my heart.

4 Responses to “I’m Still Standing”

1. kitty says:

   June 4, 2009 at 3:15 am

   so glad to hear you’re doing well and that you’re happy.
   It’s a shame we can’t be in more than one place at a time.
2. Susu says:

   June 6, 2009 at 3:41 pm

   Kitty – Yep, there are so many fond places I’d be at right now…
3. dreamsequins says:

   January 20, 2010 at 5:17 pm

   Well I feel this way about New York– I’m not originally from here– but I came to this city from California over 10 years ago… Still not ready to leave
4. Susu says:

   January 21, 2010 at 3:10 pm

   Dreamsequins – How nice that you came back to some of my old posts! And lovely to read how you feel about NY… I think that I could fall in love with that wondrous metropolis as well;)