Looking over my love, Paris… How magnificent you are tonight! I’ve dwelt six years in your embrace, and I haven’t gotten my basketful yet. Not by far. Supposedly I shouldn’t swear by eternity, but I could imagine my affection going on for you forever. You don’t cease to amaze me. Sometimes you toss challenges across my path, but in the end, I always come running back to you, under the enormous joy that I incur from being able to share my everyday pebbles of life with you. Here I feel poised, planted – the kind of sentiment that makes me whisper “I could stay forever”.
Forever is an enormous word. It makes me think of a poem that I recently read. It talked about wonderful things almost too huge to be written about. We all have to have an attitude towards the word of the non-ceasing existence. We all know that life as we know it today isn’t perpetual.
Sometimes when I experience something breathtaking, I realize I almost instantly fall into a kind of a fear. I worry about things stopping or changing. That after being blessed with so much beauty, I’ll get flushed into the negative aftermath as if it were some sort of a payback time.
Is life about avoiding bad or seeking good? People find peace in different things. I’ve found mine. At least for today. And I consider that a huge milestone.
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August 28, 2008 at 9:11 PM -
this picture of you is stunning! your beauty in the midst of such a lovely sunset reminds me of when i get to thinking that creation just shows so eloquently its magnificence!
i was saying to a friend yesterday that all does not last forever, so we relish the sweet moments. at the same time, as one lovely thing makes its way out, another enters. and as for the ‘negative aftermath’ when it presents itself, we make it through. we always do. and onto more lovelies…
peace is an incredibly beautiful gift, enjoy!
August 29, 2008 at 9:04 PM -
Audrey – Thank you so much for your words. It was a very beautiful eve in Paris. Thank you also for your encouraging wisdom about good things eventually taking off the victory. It’s very important to keep that in mind. Living under discouragement or fear is very tiring. Like you said, we always make it though.
August 31, 2008 at 4:21 AM -
wow, wonderful photo, I agree.
As humans we’re both blessed and cursed with this thing called ‘awareness’. We know how seldom things happen to work out and how quickly times can change.
This is why I like the Zen teachings, though I don’t think about them often enough. Zen thought includes what are typically considered ‘good’ and ‘bad’ as equal parts of life.
it’s a little unsettling though. During a particularly tough time, would we savor those moments? I think it’s just human nature to seek safety.
I can understand your feelings, especially, perhaps at this time. Post-wedding, you want everything to remain just like this. You’re happy! But you are aware of not being in control of your surroundings.
‘Bad’ things are inevitable. Just know that you are strong and wise enough to be able to deal with anything that comes up.
September 2, 2008 at 10:21 AM -
Kitty – Such wise words. Seizing the moment and believing in our capacities to handle whatever comes along. Good and powerful things to be reminded of. Thank you Kitty for that! I find security and safety at home. And also around people I value and trust. Collecting and stocking memories of these times can carry me through unpleasant places and events. But like you pointed out from the Zen readings, it is also inevitable to accept that life can change, and to directions we wouldn’t always want to. But as long as things are well, it is a gift to be able to enjoy them, as they are, without fear of the upcoming.
September 4, 2008 at 4:27 AM -
Everyone said all I wanted to say — beautiful!!
Who took the photograph? A sexy frenchman, I hope.
September 4, 2008 at 10:54 AM -
Ming the Merciless – Yep, the pic was taken by a gorgeous French hunk, notably mine;)
September 7, 2008 at 7:21 AM -
Ihana kuva, Susu!
Onnittelut (sisäisen) rauhan löytämisestä! Kunpa onnistuisin itsekin siinä.
Iloista sunnuntaita siulle, ihanainen, ja jaksamista tulevaan viikkoon!
Halauksin, Jenni
September 7, 2008 at 9:46 AM -
Pupuce – Kiitos kauniista sanoistasi, ja halista. Ne lammittavat tana tuulisena aamuna. Tosi mukava nahda sinua taalla pain! Tsemppia sinne etelammas myos syksyn puuhien keskelle. Taitaa teilla olla pian helpommat ajat edessa paasesongin hiipuessa.